words…and images

This project has as much to do with words  as with image. Language here, visual and conventional, is interchangeable as much as words evoke images and vice versa. My experiences on the the oncology ward at Singleton Hospital in Swansea are bringing forth many feelings and emotions that not only precipitate and orchestrate the drawings and paintings that I am working on in the studio, but also ‘require’ me to articulate them through the spoken and written word.  I feel a need that is ‘non-negotiable’ to do this. I believe, especially given the autoethnographic perspective that the whole project is based on, that this interplay between two forms of expression has an important role in the whole context of what I am doing.

I SEE IN HIM

I see in him my father’s dying

In the sparseness of his limb

In the confusion of his senses

I see him – and I see another

I see in him my father’s passing

In the sense, in me, of sorrow shared

I see in him my father’s death

In the stillness of his spirit

In the slackness of his jaw

In the deep quietude that has befallen him

I see him – and I see another

After the storm

I didn’t see my father die

I was not there as the cancer raged through him

I was not there to see him suffer

But here, now, I see in him my father’s death

He and my father

He and me

Beyond the cancer

Beyond the pain of suffering

And all is well

 

 

 

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